A few weeks ago, I talked about the abandonment process I had to go through in my love of words in order to come home to the deeper truth within why words were so important to me — the feelings words bring and the capacity they have to support us in powerfully creating our lives through feeling.

But for years, there’s been one single word that I couldn’t wrap myself around the feeling of. It’s a word I loved to use, but hated hearing other people use in association with me.

Though I felt the disconnect for years, I only developed the awareness to explain why very recently.

It took years of healing work and years of exploration and cultivation of what the word meant to me before I was able to wrap my mind around, and subsequently get past, the disdain that the the word used in association with me brought up within me.

Paradoxically, it’s perhaps the word most commonly associated with the infinite version of me — the sorceress.

That word is MAGIC.

And here’s why:

To me, magic was always something that couldn’t be created by trying. It didn’t involve effort or magic wands or egotistical intentions. It wasn’t something I would ever consider using to get what I want. Rather, it was something that already existed both outside of and within me — and when something was truly in my highest, I had simply but to align with it.

When we have a knowing deep within us that we’re meant to bring to the planet, we have layers of protection we’ve placed upon it in order to cultivate it within ourselves first — armor that feels like resistance until it’s removed.

My sensitivity towards the word pointed out aspects of the typical perception of the “sorcerer” that felt like nails on a chalkboard to me — perceptions that I knew I was here to help people shift, in order to embody the true leadership potential of the actual sorcerers they had the capacity to be.

90% of the time I heard people use the word, it carried connotations of subtle fear-based thinking. It smelled of the kind of “sorcery” practiced only by people who were controlled by deep animal-instinct fears of believing they are separate — separate from others, and separate from that very same Source energy they’re calling upon to make magic.

This kind of “sorcery” was similar to a kid in a science lab conjuring up potions to make someone love them or get what it is they think they want. And though humans do have the capacity to conjure up said form of “magic,” it will lead to even less fulfillment than where we started. Heck, look at most people out there teaching “Law of Attraction” and how little anything they teach has to do with a deeper sense of contribution to the planet.

I’ve never had any interest in that kind of magic. To me, it’s not even magic — it’s manipulation that will lead to the very same emptiness inside from which it began.

True magic is always present. It’s what lies in the pure possibility of Source energy.

And Source is everything — which means that everything contains magic.

Magic comes in the honoring of the beauty and love within everything. And we become capable of consciously creating magic only when we align with that love.

Creating magic is like a lightning rod. We — our bodies, our minds, our hearts, our spirits — need only to become the love that is in the heart of the magic, and it comes to us.

It’s not disconnecting from the body to conjure up something outside of it. It’s stepping into the body to return to the home inside of the self and allow the love to flow in.

We don’t need magic wands or potions or spells. We need only love. And because we are love, the only time magic ever evades us is when we forget that.

The kind of manipulation implied within the common use of the word magic comes from a lack of trust in the greater energy that runs through everything, and a lack of love for the the self that represents that greater energy.

We use “magic” to manipulate because we’re scared we won’t receive the love we crave. When we remember we are the love we crave, magic becomes an automatic part of the human experience.

This does not mean that consciously asking for the magic to come to us, in and of itself, is manipulative. One of the core beauties and purposes of humanity is to experience the power we have in creating.

True expression of that power comes through a sense of purpose that guides us to the magic and what’s required of us to consciously create it, as well as the surrender required to receive the magic that’s already there waiting for us.

The line between magic as manipulation and magic as pure integrity of love lies within us. And when we choose to trust in Source to lead us back home to ourselves, our power as creators becomes akin to the force of nature we intuitively knew from a very young age we were born to be.

When we recognize that magic is not manipulation, but that it is simply a way love takes form, the need for spells and magic wands dissolves. Magic takes over and shows us the way to all we could ever desire in our experience.