Life has a funny way of getting our attention sometimes and unless we learn to pay attention, we’ll continue to miss these signs until Source has no other choice than to beat us over the head with it… Sometimes literally!
Just like it did with me.
It took developing extreme chronic illness AND near death due to organ failure for me to get the message that I was not living my truth. In fact, I believe that I co-created all of these by not paying attention, by stifling myself and not living the life that I was meant to live.
I talk a lot about how being ill has changed my life because –
- I want to spread awareness of Fibromyalgia, Lupus, and chronic illness in general,
- It can be very lonely and I want others to know they are NOT alone, and
- My story needs to be shared.
I like to compare my story to the movie Maleficent, and how Maleficent’s innocence was stolen when she was betrayed by a human who had taken her wings (my life’s experiences/betrayals, etc.).
She builds her mighty wall of thorns around her Magical Forest, protecting her from the evil humans that dwell on the other side (closing myself off from the rest of the world).
Her heart grows bitter and cold (I settled into a life of hatred & self loathing), and she places a vengeful curse on the newborn baby of the man that betrayed her years earlier (the curse being the illness I co-created with constant negative energies).
But it was her own hateful curse that led her to the realization that she can love and be loved (my near-death experience that led me to open my eyes to truth).
And it was because of that Love that Maleficent was able to find her truth, take back her mighty wings, and reunite with the humans in peace.
Given where I have finally arrived, it’s hard to believe that I was someone who once hid her true self and felt so grossly inadequate for nearly 40 years.
My mind, body and world have changed beyond belief, and I have had the most incredible, surreal, though sometimes very discouraging and scary experiences.
Even if you haven’t experienced it yourself, I’m sure you can agree being chronically ill sucks – BIG TIME!
I don’t know that I can put into words the agony of living this way and yet, it has also been the most magnificent time of my life!
It has taught me that I was not living MY life but living life the way I thought I was ‘supposed’ to.
I’ve since been on this path of self-discovery and spiritual growth.
I’ve been learning to love and accept myself for who I truly am and release old and blocking beliefs. I am one with the Universe, with power and purpose, and I am here to make a difference in the World.
Best of all, I have learned to love and be loved! And that love is infinite.
I am living proof that love CAN heal.
I am not ‘cured’, by any means. I struggle every single day.
BUT every day, it gets a little easier. And I am about to share something that no one else knows about me besides my husband: I was also diagnosed with Dissociative Disorder many moons ago.
I share this with you now because I am no longer afraid of the stigma that comes with living with Dissociative Disorder and because, and more importantly, I feel more connected to my environment, to myself, and to the Universe than I ever have before!
And it’s not due to medications or the countless therapy sessions I’ve had in the past, but because I have learned mindful thinking, how to be present, and how to live naturally… and this is all possible because of self-love.
Need somewhere to start? Here are a few of my favorite tips to loving yourself:
- Don’t compare yourself to others (and don’t swallow the bullshit standards that the media/society tries to shove down our throats).
- Be unapologetically authentic and celebrate your uniqueness!
- Celebrate your achievements no matter how big or small you may think they are.
- Do something just for yourself every day.
- Connect with Nature… Trust me!
We are all brilliant, magical beings! When we learn to love ourselves whole, we unleash our superpowers and can manifest miraculous things.
It is my belief that when we stand in our own power, loving ourselves whole and letting love be our guide, we not only discover our truth and our magic, but we also bring a new consciousness to our families and our communities. As we do all of this, we change society. It all starts from within.
It’s this revelation that has led to my passion to help empower young women to discover their own worth, find their own voice, love themselves whole, and discover their place in the World… And I am so excited to announce this next phase in my journey! As it continues to take shape, remember to honor everything within you, even the stuff that doesn’t feel so good.
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